hahaz. i click view web page. and guess wad i saw? a blog dat is not even mine. best ah. so
funnie sia. the layout...hahaz.. not funny at all...ok. how do i get mine back?

dark clouds. wooo. i like. rainning. i love the weather

pounding headache.

hmmx. they have found a new person in their circle of life. yupx. she's chio somemore. woo. yupx.
at their house now. with all of them. hahaz...i'm happy for them. another another another. yupx.
hahaz. wad am i toking abt. yahz. juz new girl..

and jiawei- yes u are mean lorx. so u better get one..now!

ouchouchouch. head pain. had fever last night. juz inhaled the dunno wad posionous gas. to kill
mosquito dat one... yupx.. was saving darling's life. so i had to breathe in dat air. ouchouchouch.

not gg out today. ..again. sian. everyone is like out. and i'm stuck at home. and the worst part is
dat when i stay at home . i tend to eat lyk. non stop. forever hungry. arghx.

lynnette coming over later. yupx. gg for lunch with sis. woo. fine. u see. everyone has their own
entertainment. ahhh. shall go read again. watched "tuck everlasting" the vcd juz now. ok. the
guy very shuai. jesse tuck very shuai lorx. woox.

sianx. still pain

you can't die before me...
you cant die before me. it's a promise u've made liaox. if u have to die before me. let it be a
difference of mins between urs and mine. if i were to die before you. i will make sure u live till a
ripe old age... up or down. i will make sure they block the gates out and prevent u frm entering
. (no..u wont become a wandering soul). wooo. and. remember the day when we said we muz
die together? yupx. if there ever comes a day. dun feel guilty cuz u are not the one instigating
me nor encouraing me to do so kayz... yupx... hahaz but still.. both of us wanna die. but dun
wanna die in the attempt sucide way. but juz hope death comes and look for us... (not in the
fd2 way kayz)... yupx...woo..

[u noe who u are]

ok. dint noe why i wrote dat. and suddenly i felt babyish when i wrote dat. words dun come
out smooth. my hands couldnt even type properly.. funny eh?... hahaz. yupx. u shld noe
who u are ah... ..yeahx

tired. keep coming online. as u can see. dot. kept eating. wha.i reallie cannot stone at home. my butt will juz grow bigger. fats will start collecting. thighs will have cellulite.face will become lyk hum ji pang. hand will become lyk legs. ok. i shld stop there. in a dunnoe wad kinda mood. question mark ah.

printed out thw asignments i have to do and i realise i dun have all of the books at home. ok.
no need to do liaox. thx sham for telling me ah.

going to watch hero later. vcd. with family? dunnoe. yupx. dat means not coming online liaox.
yupx. sianx i am tired-ered. gg jogging again tmr. soon i will die of not enough shorts. and
pulled muscles. wooo. not bad kinda death.

dunno wad happened to me recently. became so unphonely. stopped using phone liaox. and
stop having the need to get close to the phone. stop rushing to phones when it rings. woo.
dat has made mum totally happy with me. though i changed frm the phone to the net. which
she juz commented on yestherdae.

i wan go reen's house. ahhh. bored ah. shall go do reading again. still reading the pl book.
finishing liaox. yupx. i'm sure it's gonna have a sad ending. flannery and anne sure wont be
together. age gap ah. one 18 the other 29. and haix..so sad for them. ahaz. after gg thru all
physical. self satisfying stuff. they still go seperate ways...wooo.

ok. finally i found the suggested asignments in the sch web.not funny at all lorx. they contridict
themselves. 1st sae is "suggested activities" den the eng assignments wrote "MUST"...wad is
this,. language prob ahz. dot

oh. did i tell u? kenneth has a girlfriend.yupx. was suaning him over it today. woo. kent and jiawei
was at kenneth house too. they damn lame . i got nothing to say. kenneth told me dat. kent...
he mysteriously got some injury again. dot. kenneth is currently pestering him about the origins.
yupx. go kenneth. juz learn to hold ur tongue. !...

hey. ok. i came online so mani times. juz dint noe why i dint update. went joggin in the morn.
sis stopped me after 3 and 3/4 round cuz her thigh was hurting so pain. yupx. went to the side.
and had some funny tok.. rush home. bathe and went to sch. met hsin and go vcd back. den
she came and return me money for dunno wad reason.

ok i am suay today. lucky nv go out. found out my bus card had no money to go home.
borrowed coins frm leeling. boarded the bus and the uncle said he had no tickets to give me.
nvm. den the bus attendent come. u tell me suay anot. yupx. juz told him "i paid but i wasnt
given a ticket" and he walked away. woohoo. maybe the driver explained to him. yupx..

came home. went sis room and started reading. was waiting for nat to come. stomach was
growing.den she came. watch "the sweetest thing" oh my gosh the show is wad kinda lame
. den she left. wasnt in a very gd mood. she brought plmgs sch u without the belt. ok. how
am i suppose to ask from her? lyk so mean. dunno...

den watched white oleander. ok. hmmx. moved frm downstairs to upstairs and downstairs
. ok... for some reasons larhx. yah. show was ok. ...yupx. gonna watch hero today or
something. see first.

ok. i juz miss reen online... woo miss her lotx. i wan go her house!

i got nothing to say. gg to sch tmr for a while and coming home. gonna watch vcds non stop
tmr. nothing else better to do.

spine hurts shit. i'm hot. ok. mayb running slight fever. keep away frm me everyone. dunnoe
larhx. jing juz called me and gave me a mysterious talk. ok. i go liaox. dun noe wad to say

juz drank campadi. ok. feeling red now. but. little only. drink red wine redder. yupx. shall go now

hey. back frm grands.read book there. went playground with sis. sat on swing. felt giddy. felt lyk
puking. motion sickness.
xin how cousion came. toked to me abt joshua. overheard his converstion abt joshua. remember
joshua? yupx. him.
msg reen there. yupx. might be gg her house one of these days

got vcds. white oleander.[lent it to hsin]. hero and cannot rem the show title. the ger frm gilmore
girls acted in it one. yupx

tmr will be a boring day. woo. maybe go sch to take vcd. i wan go reen's house. will mum allow?

ok. nothing much to sae. shall go fix the msn photos.

yupx. i'm done. gonna upload the pics now perhaps. i wan it to rain..i love dark clouds. i'm sadistic.

pray to lord. dat u'll stay with me..

morning. snow white last night. she's so chio.yupx.. went upstairs yestherdae. ok. i'm getting the
hang of writting a diary again.[dat's a good thing] yupx. read abit of the pl book den went to slp.
and surprisingly.i manage to fall asleep...woo. woke up early today. with another _ _.30 at the
back. told u i had connections with thirty. breakfast was heavy...nicenice. mum bought cheese
cake. and it cost 34 bucks and the cake is lyk so small. but it was nice larhx.

the rubbish truck outside my house juz flew past. hahaz. damn funny. it made such a funny
sound. dad saes the engine is spoiling. ok. maybe it was not dat funny. juz imagined it.uh?!.

hmmx. shall do nothing but read today. bring cam along with me. haven uploaded the pics yet..
sorrie. maybe later.yupx...

ohh. here comes fren. online. yupx. shall tok to her.

i need to keep peace in me...pray...

had enough for today. noone i wan to talk to right now. thanks. but. pls. i'm wrong abt this.
wrong . thx for ppl who listen. ok. i got nothing to say. dun wish to say anything. no words
to describe how i feel. ...never mind. shall try to be happy. i'll try.

i need to go church. i need to keep peace in me. pray

pray...

body system is failing. everytime i eat. i feel totally sleepy...all my energy concentrates and goes
to digesting the food. ok. dat's bad. which means my body system is not funtioning properly.
inbalance behaviour. wooo...

i'm tired. mentally. physically. arh... tired. shall go slp early tonight. wadever. i'm juz tired.

shall go update private. lotx of things to sae.

heyheyz. i'm back. long day. met joelle+hc at hv. i discovered there were pockets in my berms.
went hagen for ice cream and and jiawen came along. hang around and the taxi incident was
damn funny. went jo's house. slack here and there. woo. took lotx of pics. update dem soon
later tonight... den ate lotx. who was so hungry and had to buy bread?...hahaz. yupx. went
with jw to the supermart and she was like. wad if this spread is not white? which one is better?
can i open this? for lyk 10 mins? ok. maybe less then dat. den slack more. explored com.
and finally settled down for the main objective.-majong. played for awhile. den slack again.
took pics. and went for duck rice. came back. talked and went home....

walked home and met my handsome neighbour. ok. for the first time. we talked. yupx. den
later said bye to him. ...woo. it's call building neighbourly relationship....yupx

got a new habit. collecting sch u. wanted to call someone to go out with me in sch u. but.
guess.. nevermind. yupx. got a plmgs. jo's helping me with mgs. i'll ask reen for stnicks
.hmmx. scgs my sis have... oooh..yeahz...fun

ok i'm bored.i seriously am. ahhh. ok. maybe i shld be nerdish and read on the bus. bring book.
ooh. more things to carry

i need to do shopping again. ok. if only i'm rich lyk hc. jx.jo.wh.jing.husband. and pract the whole
world. i'm broke.

muz take lotx of pics today...muz!

wooo. waiting for 11.30 den i shall go change. excited. gg jo's house today for majong. with hc and
candice.[ijtp] jo's fren. ok. i'm puzzled about getting there. dun excatly noe the precise stop to
alight. okok. maybe i shld try my slping method. fall asleep on the bus and den hopefully when my
instincts tell me i've reach i'l wake up. ok. wad if it doesnt work? i'll be sitting a bus straight to
clementi. and frm there. i will still be lost.

hmmx. i think i've connection with the .30. every morn i wake up at 5.30. on thur i woke up at
6.30 fri 7.30 today 6.30. ooh...30. ok seem as a very nice number though. i'm changing at 11.30.
meeting them at 12.30. hhahaz.. ok lame

ok. my prepaid has officially deflated. ooh. no money. reminds me of a big big balloon. dunnoe
why. no money. need to top up. money. money money. sounds lyk cheryl's monkeymonkeymonkey
. ok. i need shoes. actuallie. aiya. wad am i tokin abt?

ok. wearing. ripcurl shirt today. 37d big guy berms. carring wallet. digital cam and hp. ok. my
handsfree thing is gone. no pocket larhx. i need shoes. wadever. shall wear the wadever slippers
today. anw. dun think jo will mind right...will u? ok. i'm mean. whahhh...i wan dad's polo shirt!

=reen=
heyz girl. received ur three msgs today. got wad u meant. hoped u received mine. hmmx. dunno how
to put this in words. but juz dat. no matter wad happens. even if we stopped talking. we drift. u'll still
stay my bestest friend. yupx. always. the feeling we share it's different. it's pure. and i noe it will
stay this way. and hope the conception of us stay- we might not tok to each other everyday. ,but
deep down inside. i noe u'll be there for me. and i will too. kayz
love u always.!

ok. wad is this. why does the stranger take things so seriously. it's lyk pls lorx. one simple harmless
comment. not even attacking her and she starts her blabbering. can u like sort things out before
u sae things.cuz in the end. it juz shows ur character. ur over-sensitivity.arghx. wadever. sorrie u
noe who u are ok. dint mean to ruin things. reallie sorry

woo. i home. morning. after running.home. went bball court and passed alison and nat bball. den left
and went town to meet bren. ooh shopping. spent lyk almost all my money within 1st hour. walked
heeren. saw shuai benedict. den robinsons. den cine. den slack. den taka den esprit [dat's where
i met husband]...den home...yupx...love gg out with bren

on the bus. mich called me. ask me get off. so i got off at orchard mrt station. sat there. and mich
appeared with the book and hc. andrew. davina. [is dat how her name is spelled?] and some other
fren. so irrtated with dat dunno who face. arghx...den toked to her. den yupx left. the woman who
sat beside me at the bus stop though i was mad. woo

bought. a bag. 3 bras. woo. 1 wallet. 1 handphone pouch. 1 shirt. mashmellows.[apparently it
was given away]hmmx. wad else? a book. and cannot rem. shall sae later. if i rem.

i'm shocked. toking to another dear of mine.heard and found out lotx and stuff...wooo. i got nothing
to sae liaox. this is freaking me out. someone is gonna kill someone soon. war!...oohx. okz. not
excatly...excited of fascinated. but. juz. yah.. wooox.

back frm jogging. quite ok larhx...din do sprinting... sole was too pain. pull the muscle below..
ooh.. funky. yeahxyeahx.

town later. mum keep asking me not to go...dad is angry. with me. i got no clothes....my
stomach hurts. it's coming. i can feel it. mum told me its coming too....oohx.

ooh..husband

darling husband is sick. she muz guaiguai stay at home. if not later get worst. muz sleep more.
eatmore and drink more. aiyox. dunno how to take care of herself. make me so worried..naughty naughty

i got nothing to say...

ooh. jing's phrase. lala. went blog reading. i got nothing to say... am i suppose to sae anything.
nah. juz dot. maybe things are better this way. woohoo. going out with brenda tmr!. cant wait.
morning gg running . den if got time. meet xue xing for basketball. see first larhx. bren...where
are u!!!. i need to ask u wad u are wearing?!

hmmx. tiredfied. i'm so full. keep eating non-stop. ate dinner. den eat colour biscuits. den eat
pineapple biscuits den eat pom pia. den eat. dau sa pia. den eat dunnoe wad it's call crackers
. ooh. my appetite is growing. can be compared with annie and hsin. yeahhh.

headache. not headache headache . is head ache. back of my head is pain. dot

...woo. morning. woke up at 6.14. was suppose to wake up at 7.30?. ah... i;m weird...met jing at
redhill at. 9.00. waited for her for half and hour.. yupx.left me stranded ah. den went school. and
use phone right in front of mrslee. den. diana tang was quite nice larhx. yupx. took books and
headed to town for breakfast. went taka mac...toked. den went mrt station top up jing's ez.went
popular. den headed to far east plaza to board the bus sis is in. yupx. so qiao. we manage to
get on the same bus

went raffles place. dat working place. not the shopping center. and met mum. ate some jap
noodles. ooh..i was nice. and super hot.. muz bring ppl there to eat next time. cuz it's reallie
nice for ppl who can take chili. den mum and sis left cuz sis had to take mrt. and i took bus
home myself.

came home. laze around . feel asleep and piano teacher came. and she found me slping.
anw . screwed piano. was atrocious. she said there were things in my mind and i needed to
forget them. ah. den end up. she tried to push me a little [give more pressure].couldnt take it
and . great. broke. started. feeling irritated with myself. and whoo. found myself. tearing...dot.

yupx. i'm weird .i noe. i dunnoe. juz couldnt take it. wad was on my mind? i dunnoe...wooox. going
out with bren tmr!

ooh...i'm married...i juz have to sae this again...oooh...cant wait for the big day

lotx of things going thru my mind. ppl i used to noe. to complete strangers. it juz have to come.
the period juz have to come. it always do. reallie sad to think dat. u thought u share a close
friendship with them ...but in the end... everything. is so distant. no mutual understanding. no
mutual trust... u confine in them. on the other side.. stories start brewing...conception starts
changing.. opinions start forming...nothing we can do about dat. muz juz wait to be backstabbed...

ok. why did i sae dat for?, dunno.. hah...juz decided to.. bOo

ok. my scheldue for this week. tmr-meet jing for breakdfast. den go school.. den go lunch with sis.and mum.

fri: go out with brenda. shld be town ah.

sat: majong !!! with jo+hc+pau+jing.

sun:grandma's house. whoohoo...

might make changes to some of it..yupx!

i'm officially married. shallnt sae to who yet. muz keep my darling husband identity a secret before
we officially announce and make it public.... yupx... totally missing her now. incomplete. she's
more den half of me... awww.. be mine always kayz/...hehez.

"without a doubt" as u said....wOO hoOx

married

these are the things that i know are true

yupx. this phrase came into my mind....so many things happen. so little time to think. still hoping to die
this minute

woO hOO.... planning for the 'hols' liaox. shall go play majong. den go ppl's house watch vcd. go out.
shopping..woOhHOo... yeAhx baBy...

dunno wad to sae. dunno how i shld sae. but. deep down. i understand. dats all.

backie. bathed juz now and the phone calls poured in. but dint ans any of them. was bathing larhx.
den on channel newsasia to see war news. and sae the latest news thing. i was lyk huh? den saw
the headlines moving below. den i screamed. yeahx. yupx. called world to tell dem abt it.

toked to jx .she so lame lorx. yupx. spot my speechlessness. [is there such a word?] yupx. when
i have nothing to sae. i always sae " not funny lorx" or "totally"...dot. make me feel so... bleahx....

anw...i reallie did enjoy the conversation ok!...reallie. no scarasm in it.!

bleahx. dunnoe wad i'm doing online. juz came larhx. sch. sianx. slppy. was coughing and sneezing
thruout lessons. dot. den... sleepified. annie is so silly i tell u. the whole day she was worried abt
kwan scolding her of her missing walkaton den end up kwan juz sae. "go report to police" in cheena
. dott...but yah. gd dat she din flip larhx.

after sch. lunch. ate lyk so much. den fruits. hsin was crazy. but we ate lotx too. 3 plates of fruits.
i think our waste will have no probs coming out.

sleepy. keep slping on bus recently. juz so tired. tell u. one day. there will be one day when i will
overslp and past my bus stop. ok. that will prop be my most unlucky day...

not excatly in the mood for typing. i dun wan go sch..

failed maths test....not dat it's hard. it's too simple till we forgot how to do.

forget to add. the pics are ok liaox..cheers!...yupx...so happy. finally. i still think dat pic is chio.
love dat one. yupx....hmmx...

...juz tot abt last night again. arghx. wad can i sae. dunno larhx. dun think i shld leave details here/...

i can't assure u something positive..i can only try..

juz be prepared for the worst cause dat's the most likely outcome... yah...[she will understand]

sleepy. slpt so late last night. left net at 1.00 plus? bleahx. tired. woke up so early this morn..7.30.
to me is early larhx....went downstairs. read newspaper. keep seeing the war thing. on tv. watch
msnbc and cnn...wha..not bad uh...blehax. did a maths hw. realise i haven do my chi. my e-maths
coordinate geo hw. my chi. my eng. ..wad else do i have?. not sure. i pratically din do anything
. even my last month weekend hw. best liaox. go sch kanna killed

boring. today got gilmore girls...yeahx!! it's back. cant wait...totally-. damnx sian here ah!!!...

trying to find something to inspire myself and moativate myself to do hw. but...arghx...how to?.

doing a maths the coordinate geo ws for hsin. ok..try larhx. i did lyk a few ques. yupx....still can
present to teacher larhx. cuz only do q 1-10 rite?. hmmx

bored.

this was wad kenneth told me.

[DrUg_x] u noe tt kent went for a op
[DrUg_x] ?
[mE^tEaRs] yah
[DrUg_x] do u noe tt it was screwwed up
[mE^tEaRs] no
[DrUg_x] do u noe tt kent actually puked out blood cuz of the injury
[DrUg_x] and he refuses to stay for observation

the order of pics is ok now. but pics are still screwed...help!

ok...the pic are not turning up...AHH

uploaded pic liaox. dunno if will turn up. lazy to check. cuz msn got something wrong. later larhx...

joelle and me gonna die soon i tell u. but cannot. someone will kill me frm the disappeared world. so dot. CAnnot.

later. maybe tmr den update. gd nite!

halfway in updating pic. the msn photos abit screwed. dot. stress. wanna fall sick. yupx. get sars or
something and juz die. totally happy. yupx. wan juz dat to happen now. totally. yupx...praying.

#::i juz feel lyk hiding...running for cover.

everything around me. maybe i'm not meant for this. run

backie. slpt in the afternoon. woke up. went for dinner at [just steak] at riverside walk. saw monks.
yupx. was surprise actuallie. how appropriate. dot. took pics. later update.

tiredness. watched the ending of miss singapore. dot. nothing to sae. if poppy tan had won the
crown. hmmx. singapore is an ahlian country. dat's wad my sis said. saw 2 chio bu[s] and they
lyk dint get in top 5. and the best outta top 5. celeste... gort 3rd?...erbx.

tiredness. dots coming out frm body. not rashes dots but dots. mum said something bit me and
went into blood and now coming up. yupx. still surviving..

shocked. suffering frm it. everything. seems so distant around me. dun understand anything
liaox. and anyone. the moon also dun wan tok to me liaox. wad is this lorx/.

oh yahz. added my class sam ling into link. yahz

lala. woke up at 8 plus. went back to slp. woke up at 10.30. was suppose to wake up at 12
today. but cannot slp liaox. giddy. my brain feels light. feels empty. mum says its becuz i'm
lack of slp and over exhustion. nah.. doubt so. puke.

hmmx. dun feel anything liaox. got to sae. but how to? arghx. dunnoe. it's all me and my fault

dinner tonight at some funky restraunt. mum and dad's anniversary. yupx. so long liaox they
together. wonder how they did it. not me. dunoe-

nothing to do. maybe shall be lyk hsin. go do work. see 1st

reached sch liaox. me +jing + joelle went town for dinner we carried out bag. shoebags and plastic bag
of pineapples to town. imagine!
everyone was staring at us. saw sarah. vanessa and audrey1. den went to basement withdraw money
and realise i din bring atm card. lame not!.den cheryl came. yupx. toked to her for awhile while joelle
and jing disappeared. den yah they came back and she left. yupx. she look funky red can. hmmx.
yupx. she's at monks now i think.

so we went lips and eat. spent lyk 20 on food?. den [smilez] came with her grp of frenz behind her
. ok. we totally lost our senses and crapped all our way. i think she abit the shocked. so funnie.
den after quite long she left and i returned her her phone.. den went down. joelle met wei and yah.
waited for her and went to sit cab. home...

tired. here i am .yah. tired and jiaxi hurrying me to slp again. bah. nvmx. i gg off soon liaox.
gonna slp with my hair wet.

i think me and joelle passed our germs to one another

anw. we decided to go out shopping together cuz me and joelle got lotx of things to buy in
common. and yah. gg monks one of these days. and peihan is gg with us in sports b. hehez.
transversite ah!... cheeky.[our joke]

hmmx. and yes! cheryl is wad kinda never use brain. juz rem wad she said... cuz we wanted to
go monks. den i told her and she told me... she said "got bring skirt not?" HALLO? who brings
skirt to camp. tell me larhx. tell me. and ask me go monks in sch shirt.. white short. orange
slippers. heavy bag. shoe bag and 3 PINEAPPLES?. hallox.! nv use brain. wad can i sae?!

heyheyz. i'm back. totally dead beat. but give u a rough update on wad happened

=wed=
went to sch so early to meet jing. suppose to go for breakfast but din in the end. yupx. met jiaxi.
toked to her. hehez. so cute. she look so ger. den later. toked to sy for a while . hmmx. she
passed me her phone. so reluctant can. lucky nv drop into some river or drain with all the cow
manure and waste... anw. on the whole bus ride. me+jing+joelle+kai were toking and singing
non-stop. even when the whole world was slping. toked abt crk. straight stuff. toked abt everything.
sang tv ads.handphone ad. fav ad. nursery rhymes...all the lame songs u can think abt. yupx.
totally lame. everyone thought we were met. the trip there was lyk so long and we were not even
quiet for a minute.

reached there. walked here walked there. so hot can. yah. saw the bing mix breed of cow and
something which kai totally hates. rabbits. deers. horses. cows. so funky..den went doms. the
beds were... erm. disgusting to me? yah. den talked. and hung around. took photos as a grp.
grp= me+jing+joelle+kai+small pau+peihan. yupx so cute. [tmr den upload]...played games. den
we played with the teachers. so fun. goh ai ling+ angeline ng+ ms goon+ and mr gary tan. mr gray
tan is totally funky and funny.

den in the night. couldnt slp. so we talked and me and jo lie on the walkway. cuz our beds are
there. den the instructor keep scolding us and stuff. den 12+. me jing and joe played daidee on
the outside. den she come scold us again. sae we selfish block walkway.and joe already said
dat we wld move after this game den she came again and sae we nv ans her. sae wad complain
to teacher. wad is this lorX!...yahz. so kanna chase away. tired to slp. but failed.

=thurs=.
dead. totally tired. morning PT. had to lead them in stretching. dot. den ran. so long can. damn
tiring.. breakfast and went to the river there. to build our rafts. me and joelle stand there and lyk
"huH?" erbx. we dunno how to do. but tried anw. yupx. den later our rafts sank and had to remake
it.. den afternoon.
amazing race. karen tan was in out grp. she's nice i tell u. ran round the whole camp collecting
tags and doing obstacles. yupx. me and joe decided to get into the water for our rafts. halfway to
the pt. ok. the raft broke. everyone fell into water. den end up. decided dat me. deone. and xinling
go to pt. i sat behind.deone in front. she tried to paddle. cannot. so ended up. i did the moving
of boat., carried this no so long stick and use it as a level to push ourselves. hand so damn pain.
cuz the wood had to be forced on the ground .ouch lorx. and the raft was practically falling apart.
so yah. we completed it and did a 15 mins run to the entrance to collect the last tag. tired.luckily
we manage to be back on time.
den sand building. din do. why?! tell u why. was carring the sand. totally heavy den suddenly the
cannot take the weight. den the instructor ivy was like "dun let go dun let go" and they let go.
and guess wad? the whole sand box fell on my leg!. freak lorx. super pain. dat was the time
when kai told the instructors dat she was dizzy and felt nauseous when the raft wood pole hit
her head. so they brought her to the doc and brought me to the long house and instructor lisa
helped me with the leg.

leg. totally blue black can. ouch lorx. swelled. but now better liaox

den campfire night. damn nice. was fun and the stars was nice. moon too.!

=today=
woke up late. did morning stretching with the grp again. den went down to the river to clear the
rafts. den packed up. and left camp. took some pics. cam ran out of batt...cuz ppl keep on-ing
and off-ing it to see pics.yupx. den bus ride. 2 hours to rice farm. me and joelle slpt the whole
way together while jing and kai were awake. den 1h30 min bus ride to pineapple farm. me and
joelle slpt again. this time jing and kai slpt and i woke up halfway. joelle slpt untill so funny. they
kept laughing. den pineapples. nice! i used to hate them ..but today's rocks i tell u...den late
late. behind scheldue. reached sch at 7.30 when suppose to be 5.30...

finally this thing is working. i leavin for sch liaox. suppose to meet jing for breakfast. everyone take
care kayz.. love ya. [ still praying dat they will cancel this thing]. arghx...byez!

ok. busy. totally rushing.hmmx. sch today for lessons. den town with darling jing. met yitian. cindy
. huiyi . hsin and sy..den ate at creps and cream with sy and hsin and brenda. later stella and nihaad
. den saw so many crecentians. saw shuai shuai janice too.. den when jiaxi's house. yah. stared
at sky for a long long time. den she came back frm tuition and we headed down for dinner.

back at home. busy. rushing for things. hmmx. manage to squeeze out some time to come online
and update. gotta go soon though. yupx.

anw did. lotx of thinking last night. and yah. manage to clear some stuff and make some blurry
stuff clear? yupx. manage to sort out the messing and uneasiness..hmmx. moon refused to tok
to me last night. asked me to go sort out things b4 i go and consult moon.

yupx. silly jiaxi is asking me to go offline and go pack my things. shall listen to her....hmmx.
and dun waste ur time on friday kayz. cuz ...aiyaz...let me be pathetic...

yupx...so there i go. to johor tmr and be back on friday evening. yupx.miss me everyone kayz.
love u guys lotx. take care...byezx!

yupx. end of conversation. hope he gets it. hope it helps. he went for the opt. yupx. pray he'll be alright

ok. suddenly kent is toking to me. he juz sent me a song.pls tell me that things are getting better .
dun let me noe it's lyk tanweijian. pls. dun let it be

saw the moon today. damn chio. shall go tokin to it later. it's prompting me to communicate with it.
yupx. shall go soon

oh yahz. toked to steph frm st nicks. she told me jaden. rem jaden? ex-st margs? yah changed
name to jacob...ohh dint noe

back. tired. saw grandma. yah. she's recovering well. maybe go visit her again tmr.

mum might be gg canada to work for a yr. den norwa the other yr. i wanna go along. leave here. but
wad?! they sae wad after my o's means only at norway. but den again they wan me to stay for jc.
wad lame is this. if sis goes overseas and mum too. den i'll be with dad. which is...erm...yucks!. no
way. i can never forgive him for wad happened. and no way. i cant be with him alone. as in. we'll
quarrel and fight everyday. or perhaps he wont be at home and better still can come home anytime
i like. arghx. dunnoe larhx.
wait and see

hmmx. sch tmr.lazy. dun wan can? cant believe i'm gonna take a slow bus to sch juz for a few
hours of lessons. so waste of time. but nvm. after dat gg out with jing. yuppiex!. cant wait.

dottish. woke up my the sound of music.noise? had piano early in the morn. was half awake but
din wan to look sleepy cuz it will be kinda mean to teacher. cuz i guess she's tired-er. is there
such a word? yupx. den yah. she called. dot lorx. make me fume early in the morning. dotdotdot.
yahx. hmm. maybe i'm controlling her too much. maybe i shld juz let her do wad she want. dunnoe
. maybe. argh...why am i thinking abt this again.
yupx. come come let me update u wad i did today.

watched wan quan yu le after piano. head was totally pounding and whoa. it was pain. when upstairs
to watch. rolled on bed a million times. yupx. den when room to sleep. ok wasn't suppose to larhx.
.but head was still pain. yah... sis woke me up.so cute .she offered me the choc cookies for mrs
fields...damn nice. ok.i kept eating non stop. gonna put on a thousand pounds..yupx.den did maths.
ok i did so little dat it actuallie seem quite insignificant....den den... eat again. went outside to buy
stuff for geog/bio trip and bought 6 mini packs of chips. yeahz.my darling super rings!!!

hmmx. juz went blog reading...ermerm....dunno wad to sae. am i dat hard to understand? feel so
guilty again.guess we're both having sleepless nights.it's juz dat.... aiyaz. maybe cuz i dun lyk to
express myself verbally. it gets werid. gets..yahz to me.dunnoe dunno. yupx. the moon doesnt
tok to u silly. it only talks to me. yupx! since young we have been communicating. it's not gonna
let out my darkest evilest secrets to u lorx! yupx.

hmmx. gonna go hospital later. mum's already there. she's taking leave for the whole week to be
there. maybe after sch reopens i will miss sch a few days to take over her shift. cuz yah. bet
mum's tired. and yah. sch ...aiya miss abit wont die. hope she agrees cuz my cousion is doing
dat too...

hmmx. shopping tmr with jing. cant wait. but too bad she only have a few hours to spare. if not i
bet we can turn the shopping malls upsidedown. hmmx. dot ...

yupx. nothing else to sae liaox. gotta go shower soon and go hospital liaox. ..be back later if i
can!

finally i finish editing the pics.. took me so long. sleepy. read kent's mdd.ok. how does he expects
me to be happy. dunno wad to sae. he is still ...it's lyk he still bother to think abt me when he's
so filled
up already. and i'm lyk. i juz sux. sorrie kent. i'm sorrie

backie. watched finish runaway bride...i wanna run.fly- yupx. was talking to her on the phone
. yupx. she's actuallie very ger lorx. as in. yah. girl girl. as in she's reallie a girl inside. yahz!
dunnoe wad i'm toking...

sleepy. when was i never sleepy. slpt awhile juz now and still sleepy. wad can i sae. i'm piggish.
totally eating so much and eating so much. horrendeous.

waiting to update my pics. lazy lehz. hmmx...ok...go do now...be back later!

went blog reading juz now. ok. hsin's yest entry blew me over. yupx. totally-

yupx. gonna update pics later. mum asking me to eat lunch liaox. i must must do my hw
today. if not i'm dead. going off on wed for geog/bio trip and back only on fri evening. wad kinda toot.

still sleepy. go liaox... needa sort out my packing stuff. so many things to buy. so little time. so little money.

tired.

=yestherday=
netball carnival. sy the manager.i'm the asstant. hehez. the weather was lyk..whoaaa hot. hot hot. i'm
lyk burnt now. i took lyk ages to become less dark and now. boom. i'm back to square one again. dottish
. anw.yupx.crez won! won outram. won the carnival. yupx. happy for dem. screamed till i kinda lost
my voice.. and they made me so anxious dat i started struming the pen on my shoes and den discovered
the cap wasnt on. so my shoe is lyk. pen inks everywhere.

anw. went home after dat while the rest went out. fell asleep thru out the whole bus ride.den home.
decided dat i want to go out. dunnoe wad possessed me .yah but i wanted and needed to go out.
so called hsin and jiaxi. yupx. bathed and went out. den on the way to town. found out dat hsin's
not going..dot. she abandoned ship. so yah. reached town at 7 plus. met jiaxi at cine. den saw
the juniors. dey got third. yupx and they said i looked a!!! den jiaxi said i looked abit a larhx. hehez.
saw cheryl with frenz at the escalator of cine. yupx. she recognize me. dot. yupx.she said i dun
look a...sad lorx. yupx. den turned my head. and saw who?! saw [smilez], andrew and errfa there.
i was lyk erbx. dot. her cheeky face there can. yah. den they disappeared. so me and jiaxi went
up... wandered. den walked outta cine...saw cheryl again

den went taka and b4 entering taka ...changed destination to paragon. so yahz. went paragon
level 6. sat at the steps there and played some funnie game. yupx. sat there for quite long den
went down to buy food. den went up again. sat there for awhile and left cuz the sercurity guard
came and chase us away. ok. i was paranoid. hehez. keep saying dat he was looking for us. so
we went outside of paragon and sat there. she ate. and we observed ppl walking past us. yupx.
coffee bean for a while and went walking again.
went to take our last walk at heeren and saw the flowers on the floor. damn funky. went cine den
went to the bus stop liaox. was abt 10.30 when i sat the bus. ok. thx and sorrie jiaxi. maybe u
shldnt have waited for my bus and i shld have waited for urs. yeahz. den end up. we wld be waiting
for each other's bus. den home. mum din sae anything. yupx
den she called at 11.40 . talked till 1.am_+... was wad kinda tired. dot. she forever so energize
one.dot.dun sound sleepy at all. yupx. she was also out larhx. home much later den me lorx.

yupx. den slpt and here i am!

i'm gonna die soon-...so let me fly

went out today after school.with hsin+annie+ming. walked aimlessly.yah.but was quite ok larhx. den
went tbp with hsin+annie+hc. yupx. almost cried becuz of scandulous acts...hahaz.was quite funnie
actuallie.but...i was kinda scared. dottish. den they ate steamboat...yupx. hc left after dat...yupx.
scary

walked dunno how long to bus stop. den wad? sat 167.suppose to go home. end up found myself
at the bus interchange. ok. i took the wrong side...dottish. at the interchange..was lyk already
9.00.was totally lost. yupx.den sat 132 home. reached home at 9.45? yahz...

tiredness. tiredness.

toking to her
she's wad kinda of a stupid,silly and horrible. so lame can!!!

toking to her now.yupx.she's wad kinda of a silly. still remember the scene lorx.so shocking can. out of the blue come and carry.hALLO!... silly ger larhx u. i noe i very fat and heavy. but no need to suan me lyk dat.yupx.

ok. summarise my results
chi-67.5[thanks to darling hsin]
eng-70
bio-74
chem-absent
amaths-67.5
emaths-80
geog-57.5[ok this sux]
lit-68

yupx...owe alot to hsin.yupx...totally

heyz...in school now... yupx...suppose to be doing some eng presentation thingy. but i dint do
...using com in front of teacher. dottish lorx... tired. havent been sleeping...keep waking up in
the the middle of the night to do thinking... so tired...dot...

today...suppose to be the last day of school? yupx...shld be gg out. cant wait. hmmx. need to
go for shopping spree

yestherdae trng. in rain. yupx... quite ok larx...juz wasnt serious. when was i ever serious?
yupx... hmmx... shall go do blog reading liaox... if...IF...i can access frm here

tokin to her now. she and her diao.so silly. carn believe she's eldest again...so little kiddy....yupx

jiaxi juz told me dat shuling's in fry.hallo!!! i got trick. she told me she was in keller

dotish. hmmx.... sianx...gonna go off line soon...yupx...everyone take care ahz!

heyz heyz...online.suppose to be doing the eng hw. yupx. distracted. super happy!!!.. yupx.
=heats-
4x100...yupx...we got into finals!...happy happy. happy as a team but disappointed with myself. cuz was
running the lane8 with 5 puddles and the curve is wad kinda curve....yupx. was complaining to ysy the
whole time. i like gave up halfway while running dat stupid curve. came in with hamiza. .yupx.i think
dat;s her name.parluf...whoa...dat blew me over...so happy. yupx got 2nd. and i din feel so
disappointed with myself. yupx. more confidence and was concentrating more. yupx. so happy!!
...though the passing of baton between me and jean was abit screwed. so funny. dunnoe how to
sae. we pass ...den she dint take properly and i dint release properly..den she ran w/o baton...i
was lyk "EH!"... yupx...so funny...after parluf...my butt was wad kinda pain. couldnt walk. dot. so
pain...ouch lorx... but yupx it became better

after heats. went home with jiaxi.or shld i sae chaixi. yupx. bus to clementi. with i think is shuling
yupx. she's nice. den suppose to go for mountain fries there..den was tired. so jiaxi said go my
house there. yupx. we crap the whole way there and at macs... oh my gosh ...we were wad kinda
lame? the perfect storm. wad hail storm wad snow... damn lame...den saw mum walk pass..
.she din see me though... funny.... hahahahaz. yupx.

tired. shall go do the eng liaox. yupx. thx jw for the spikes !and everyone who kept cheering me on

going off soon. why ppl so smart now a days? ...eh ....kent skull is bleeding again.

oh. thx hsin. damn waste of time ..sorrie. she lost herself ...yupx.thx anw. took up so much of ur time....

spikeless tmr. din manage to get it frm jinger. and yahz dun wish to bother jiawen again. feel so guilty
lorx.dot. nvm. shall train hard tmr.scared. keep imagining the scene of me dropping the baton and me
tripping over my legs. ok. this is super lame. but it's possible kayz. i might even fly frm the beginning till
the end. u never noe. yupx. den whao...ok i need not run lioax


freak ahz. she juz shouted at me again. wad ask me to let her use now. and slam wad remote control.
wadever lorx. continue to slam larhx. spoil also not my problem. slam wad slam. see slam on urself
fun nort larhx.try larhx. wad is this lorx

ok.she scared me. totally. yupx. so creepified. dint noe wad to do. and she said so much rubbish. yupx.
rubbish. finally got her to slp. she ahz...aiyox. dottish ahz.

freaking sis i giving me attitude. cuz wad. cuz she wan to use com now. she juz came down and sae
"let me use the com now. i wan check my mail" hallo. and she expects me to give in to her juz lyk this.
she think i who. who she think she is. can boss me around. pls lorx. juz shut up. and i said no and now
wad. slam things .she think she big shot ah. wad the hell lorx. freakx-

and now she's there. trying to challenge me mentally. wad. sit there and stare at me. wadever. yah.
go ahead .waste ur time. as if it will get u anywhere..

parents.irritating. quarrelled with dem over the phone. just.

cut my hair. yupx. slight diff only lahz. yupx. i din cut a. yupx. cheryl i dint!. dot. timmo was there when
were had lunch. haha he said i grew taller.. yeahz!...hehez. yupx. den came home at 5.00 had dinner
at 6 cuz sis had tution at 7.45 ok. food was great. mum cooked it. den drank yahz. finish the bottle of
red wine.

[smilez] called. she's out there drinking. was at 1st angry. den when she called juz now. looking at her
state of mind. guess i shldn. totally speechless. dunno wad to sae. she's kinda scaring me. she cannot
take alcohol still drink. ah. nv think one. always so silly. somemore eldest in family. wad is this. ahz
. doesnt wan to listen to me. dun wan bath and slp. stupid ger...dunno how to take care of herself ah..

[purple] thought abt the colour today. told sis abt the colour so funky rite. greeen still rox though.
yupx. yah. thought abt everything dat has happened. how purple came into the background. yupx.
miss the colour. wan to see now. shall go digging for.. ani purple stuff. yupx

eye pain. like ouch. cant' open.

trng tml ...yupx. have to train liaox.

morning-
woke up early today. still tired though. called jing. yupx trng is cancelled.dot. it's always cancelled.
hailing said she didn want to train and june was missing. dotdotdot. yupx. piano teacher at my house
now. yupx with my sis larhx. later den my turn.i nv practice so long liaox.she's gonna kill me. definately-

yawnz. i'm still yawning. thinking abt the hockey match yestherdae. yupx. crez players were reallie
committed.their runs.their effort. yupx. did injustice to dem by not letting dem win. but nvm. they are
still winners to me to us. yupx.

cut hair later? dunno if i have time. sis and her irritating self. self centered manx. totally. wadever.

still yawning... not gonna go out today. no way. gotta stay at home. be this little goodie ger. parents
are already lecturing me for hogging the phone for the past few weeks. if i go out. i'm lyk gonna get
killed.tot

lazy. totally. lazy to type. aiyaz....after piano. den update u. hopefully i energized myself by den

found out something abt kent.his mum called kenneth to tell him dat the father is abusing kent in public.
kenneth even gave the example of lyk a gang fight...mux be quite serious...dunno wad to sae

totally tired...go0na die soon. gonna go after reading someone's blog-

tiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtired-totally--

yawnz..brain totally not working... totally tired.lotx of things happened this week.erm shld i update?
...long story..hehez. totally tired... toking to someone now.yupx...

-purple-
sudden lyk for purple not as in the colour purple but purple.[some ppl will understand me] yupx.i
think is not lyk lyk but lyk ...yahz... how to sae. is the close lyk....yahz... today.

not gonna sae much...dunoe wad to sae.....

tmr den sae lahz

trng tml at queenstown.tired.

cannot contact jiawen.dead-

listening to:tatu-all the things she said

maybe i wont turn a after all.dunno.depends on my guts next sat.everyone's discouragin me. hsin
and ppl. even jiaxi and cheryl...dotdotdot... totally- stunned upon seeing the pic cheryl sent me. she's
oh my goshable different can. -not comments-
yupx.

yupx.he juz came online.doubt i'll be tokin to him. read his mdd.dotdotdot.-speechless-...

waiting for 9.30. hoping to see mr bowler. [rem him?].yupx.the bowler at cine last yr at the last day
of sch? yesh.in the show.yupx.chao shuai.but i doubt i will larhx.cuz he's young.yupx. dotdotdot.
dun get any funny ideas.he's juz shuai- dat's all.
hmmx.sis is running up and down the house.for wad? dun reallie now.dun reallie see why i shld write
this down. but i juz did.
timmo-i pity him.my sis is so hard to pls. dotdotdot.she agrees herself too!...

yupx.guess i'm gg...ciao!

yupx.mum has left. saw qiqi at the airport.she was staring at my sis.ask her tmr. toked to her.
yupx.she's wad kinda of a lame? anw. u turn frm bung to p larhx.den i turn a.dotdotdot. anw.the
nursery rhymes she sings are wad kinda funky...but nvm. thx anw!. was totally rocking on my chair.

hsin+jiaxi+stella called. dot lor. wad kind of a corny. pass phone here and there. and ahem. dun
wan to say anything.jiaxi has a terrible memory i tell u.keep calling wrong person.toot.hmmx.
they are nice ppl...dot why did i sae dat for?

shall go blog reading...do i have time?

maybe.- yupx.tc ppl.be back when i'm free?

hsin!...was looking at pics are i realise something!. ur jan kor is shuai!...ahaha.maybe i'm lagging.
bren.now we both think she;s shuai....[i think i'm losing it]...but seriously..she's shuai!

...duno wad to sae.but.i ought to sae something....ahz...nevermind.yupx.ok.last night's dream keep
appearing in my brain...ahhh..ok... enough.-. it' all started with mich.den sy.den hsin.den me.alll the
simple plan song is stuck in our brains.and we keep doing the funky dance which goes along with
the song.ahhh...now sy's nick is "i'll do anything just to hold u in my arms"...bleahx

listening to "ni hai ai wo ma" by jolin tsai

heyz i'm here again.realise how lame i've been signing on everyone's...ok.not everyone's gbk and tagbrd.
erm.and my sentence are lyk the most cliche and ahh...malu malu.yupx.

realise also how lame i am? crapping to ppl lyk hsin and nie.esp those close to me.with my chicken
chicken stuff? bleahx

morning --
yawnx.woke up early today.ok.could hardly sleep.was thinking so hard thruout the night dat i thought my
brain burst.tiredtiredtired.went reading ppl's blog and started leaving messages on most of them.wads
with me uh? yeahyeahx..yupx.comfirm.the flight is today.tired.well.slept for a little while...and images
of.*cough cough* keep appearing.not gonna sae who.bleahx.

hsin.ur blog is freakin me out.i think i'm gonna have nightmares soon.ahhhh..yupx

nothing much to sae ah.shall keep posting short entries today.lala...shall link my way out again.yupx.
going blog reading...ciao!

[smilez]
heyz.i noe u are reading this ...yahz....wanna sae thx for supporting me thru this. and even understanding
this responsibilty...yah. noe this is reallie slowing things down between us...yahz...i cant say anything to
make up to dat.cuz i noe i cant turn my back on him.juz hope u understand.
and sorry for making u go thru all this

yupx.thx.reallie thanks

i cant believe this...till now.he's still been there--

ok.--..he told he even if he go the opt he might not be able to see me thru my "O"s...ok.
why muz he be so nice. dun do this.it;s emotional torture

he's online

our conversations are strained.they're so tight and distant.dat's not how i felt last time.hope this
psycology thing is working on him and kenneth.seemed effective on kenneth....

he's not answering kenneth again..well.kenenth's getting his cool back.no more.vulgur stuff...yupx.
conversation is growing...yupx

temptation island.later.hope i manage to get something out of kent by then.later

back.mum's flight was postponed to tmr afternoon.dot.could have went out...did maths.ok.i took 3 hours
to do.cuz i was wandering thru out the house.yupx.lyk ghost lyk dat.slpt for 2 hours after dat.realise
how piggish i have been.but i dun mind.cuz i reallie want those dots to go.

dun tink i will be gg church tml.reallie miss ppl there.but mum's gg off.so have to stay at home and
pei her.yahz.she's gg for a week.seems rather reluctant to me.but reallie.one woman go india alone.
abt scary? i wan go with her.if only it's during the march hols. might be gg canada with her.hope hope
pray dat she can arrange the trip during sch hols.if not i will juz peng.

sianx.bored.feel lyk gg out.ahz. ate so much for dinner.kept playing with cam.